The Day I met Demi Lovato.

GUISE. GUISE. GUISE. 

OKAY. I was talking to my boyfriend via text. And I was telling him, that I was struggling to think of what to write on my blog.

WELL NOW I have an amazing thing to write about.

June 6th, 2014.

I looked on the Lovato Club member page. I checked every fucking day. Just to see, where she would be going for tour. 

I was not so sure, if she would make it to Pittsburgh, PA, where I could easily get access to going to that concert.

BUT WHATEVER.

So I see the places that are listed...

It said Hershey, Philadelphia, I forget where else but.. I just remember hyperventilating... I was like O M G did I READ THAT RIGHT?

IS MY FUCKING IDOL COMING TO PITTSBURGH PA?! 


After I found out she was coming, I texted my mom. I was relentless. 

I was literally screaming. I found out she was coming to Pittsburgh, and I threw my phone down in excitement.

I texted my best friend at the time, letting her know that DEMETRIA DEVONNE LOVATO was truly gonna be in Pittsburgh IN FUCKING SEPTEMBER!

It was all a BLUR!!!! 

At first! I decided... I would not ask my mom for a meet and greet.

BUT then I realized... I wanted to meet her just as badly. I wanted a freaking picture for God's sake! 


I decided to wait until my mother bought two floor tickets for the concert. BOO YAH! I was so excited.

THEN I decided to check the prices of the meet and greet.

THEY WERE NOT SO BAD! 

After a ton of begging and pleading.. My parents decided, fine they let me get the meet and greets! 

The next few months were a drag! It has not even hit me. AT ALL! 

I remember, thinking to myself "Am I really going to meet Demi Lovato?! REALLY?!"

And thinking, omfg this can't be real!

So.... fast forward to SEPTEMBER 9th 2 0 1 4!!!! 


I was freaking excited.

GUISE. THAT DAY. WAS THE DAY.

I WAS GONNA MEET MY IDOL.

OMFG. NO.

AM I PREPARED?

WHAT.

NO.

I was literally freaking out. 

Me and my friend, we met a few cool people in the lines! 

Then... after 2 FREAKING HOURS. It was finally our turn!!!! 

Everything was such a blur. GUISE OMFG 

I remember seeing her in front of me... AND ALL I COULD SAY WAS "Hey Demi! I love you so much you saved my life!" and she literally smiled and said "Aww come here!" and posed for a picture. 

IT WAS THE CUTEST PICTURE ALIVE OMFG

GUISE..

I was literally crying after I met her...

Demi Lovato is one of the sweetest people EVER.

I just freaking love her so much.


Her concert was A M A Z I N G and I just have no words for it!!!

Like omg.. When she sang Skyscraper, I was literally IN TEARS.

When she sang "Really Don't Care" I was dancing like crazy!

When she sang Let It go, I became crazy!

Pretty much EVERY SINGLE SONG, I just enjoyed watching her sing. She is just the biggest inspiration in my life. <3

OSIDJGKLSDJGLDKGJLSKDJGLSDKJGSLDKJGLSDKJG I MISS HER AND HER CONCERT SO MUCH. BRBBAWLINGMYEYESOUT

Late night thoughts

I have lacked motivation to write a new blog post lately because I kept thinking who the hell will read my posts? Why would people be interested in getting to know me. So I'm still new to this blogging thing, but I'm going to get better. 

First of all I wanna say the last two weeks have been very emotionally draining, I just haven't had the energy to update my blog. 

Anxiety and depression almost took over my friendships, my relationship with my boyfriend and my family.

Luckily, my friends and I are still okay. Boyfriend and I are still okay, family and I are a bit ehhh right now because of a lot of stress happening in all of our lives.

Also! I've recently had an allergic reaction to a specific medicine that was supposed to help relieve my infected stretched ears. Nope, it made everything worse.

I kept getting faux fevers. Like... Actual fevers but my temperature was still fine 98.6 so I thought wtf? Because my face was hot, everything in my body was hot as hell. I was having a hard time sleeping because my body was having chills and I was sweating an hour later. It just made no sense. THEN I became itchy. And later... Hives developed all over my body. Ugly... Red patches on my skin, and it felt REALLY irritating!!

I am currently slowly getting better because I'm on a new medicine now to reduce the itchiness but damn. I've been through a lot the last few weeks. Other stuff I don't need to talk about but.. Yeah whatever lol. I'm going to bed now, so sorry for the Debbie Downer post :/ I just have been through a hell of a lot. Bye now! 

Baby Fever....

Okay. I need help guise......

I. am. having. serious. baby. fever.

I see these cute babies everywhere, and all I think is I want to make one of my own one day. I mean, when they cry, I just want to hold them. When they giggle, all I want to do is kiss them, and when they get all snuggly, thats my favorite mood ever. 

I've been like this ever since I was like........ 10 because I love babies. I want to make one of my own one day, and I just know that I have the ability to be a good mom. 

HOWEVER

TO BE A MOTHER: 

I would have to be prepared to give up my......

-constant nap times

-binge watching TV

-my social life (not that I have any but whatever)

-my sleep.

-MY SLEEP.

-M Y S L E E P!! 

Not only that but they are a huge financial toll... And once you have a baby, that baby is yours for the rest of your life... Dont get me wrong...

I LOVE BABIES. I am just aware that I AM NOT READY TO BE A MOTHER.  NOT JUST YET. 

GAH CONFLICT. 

Bucket List

1) Get to the top of the Eiffel Tower

2) Go back to Turkey 

3) Swim with the dolphins 

4) Meet Tom Hiddleston (HA, not happening) but FANGIRL HARD 

5) Meet Julie Andrews... (Also ha!! Not happening) sighs wistfully... Do I have to say it? 

6) Hike to the Hollywood sign 

7) Visit London

8) Visit actual Harry Potter studio 

9) Tokyo, Japan - Hachi statue

10) Meeting Britney Spears

11) Meeting Harrison Ford -- MUST. MEET. HANS. SOLO. 

12) Meeting Aishwarya Rai and Shahrukh Khan

13) Visit Hobbiton in New Zealand (inner fangirl scream)

14) Ride a jetski!

15) Go zip lining!!!!!!

16) Get a Dolphin kiss! 😍

17) SEPTUM PIERCING

18) Loire valley with my love ❤️