Hello fellow reader.

Have you ever gone through a day... Where you compare yourself constantly to another person?

Have you ever felt... Helpless to the point where you are too ashamed to ask for help?

Have you ever spent the whole day crying just because you couldn't fit in your favorite jeans? I admit I have. 

Well. I have one thing to say to you.

You. Are. Perfect.

You. Are. Loved. 

You are made to stand out 

You are made not to fit in

Darling, you are an original.

Don't let anyone dull your sparkle.

Don't let anyone destroy your dreams

Never stop learning about yourself. 

Say NO when your heart feels fit to.

Love yourself.

Pro-Choice IS Pro-Life.

So, guys... 

I decided to post something a little more controversial on my blog. And I was supposed to post on Saturday but.... things got crazy. Anyway. 

First of all, if you are not pro-choice, or you get easily offended.. Then leave this post. Sorry, but this post is not for you.

Prochoice IS Pro-life.

I DO NOT CARE WHO SAYS IT IS NOT. It IS.

People misunderstand and think that being prochoice, means supporting murder.

AGAIN. I really need to emphasize this. 

PRO CHOICE IS NOT PRO MURDER.

People misunderstand what pro-choice is.

At first, my whole life. I literally thought I was "Pro Life" I was against abortion, I believed that people who got abortions were so fucking stupid to make that choice. I believed that those women were so irresponsible, awful, and stupid.

Then..... almost a decade ago, a situation happened. Where someone got a pregnancy scare, I won't say their name, here out of respect to them.

This person thought she was pregnant, so she told me that at her age, at her time in college, she could not afford a baby. So let me clarify this. She WAS NOT pregnant anyway, so she did not have to worry about going to a clinic or doing steps to remove the embryo and whatever.

She told me that she was not against abortion if it was truly necessary, and she hoped that I would open my mind. Now, here is where I am glad.. That I have always been flexible. I am always willing to learn. I am always willing to help and support people the best to my abilities. To be a better friend, a better PERSON.

But anyways. I learned about abortion, and to be honest.. yes I WAS DISGUSTED. But did it change my beliefs? No. My friend changed my beliefs.

From that point on, I knew... Not my business, not my choice, not my decision and not my life.

So this brings me back to the point...

If you are not pro choice... You care NOTHING about women rights, health rights, our rights. 

Let me put it to you this way. It is FINE to be against abortion. IT IS OKAY TO D I S A G R E E. BUT there is no way in HELL, that you should use your religion, your personal beliefs, and YOUR opinions to force a woman to conceive full term.

Basically, people's idea of PRO LIFE is actually PRO FETUS.

Forcing a woman to conceive full term, without considering the consequences of what could happen to her body, is NOT pro life. You are not pro life if you care more about a fetus than the woman who's body developed the fetus.

You are not pro life if you believe that a woman should die having her baby.

You are not pro life if suddenly you stop helping a woman after she requests assistance with her baby.

You are PRO FETUS AND ANTI CHOICE. Period.

And that is way different than being pro life, or pro choice.

If you believe.. that a woman gets to make the choice herself.. Then you are pro choice.

If you believe that it is wrong, but you support the woman anyway in her decision, you are pro choice.

If you believe that the woman's life is just as important as yours, then you are pro choice.

BUT I ***WILL**** REPEAT THIS

PRO CHOICE IS NOT SYNONYMOUS TO PRO ABORTION OR PRO MURDER

IT JUST MEANS.. Your choice, I will do my best to support you in your journey, no matter what you decide. And I know that my opinions in the matter, should not affect you as a person. 

That is why... Pro choice IS Pro Life.

To my high school bullies.

Dear former bullies

I hope you know this. 

I forgive you. I forgive you for how you have treated me. To be honest, I have never said a word to you. Never told you how I really felt. But this is how I feel now.

You may have gotten away with the teachers. You may have gotten away with victimizing me. You may have gotten away with.. God knows what. But one thing you have left me with, are scars that have started healing. Scars that you have given me. Unfortunately, I am not able to inflict the same kind of pain on you, that you have inflicted on me. However, all I can say now is... Karma.

Karma has bitten you in the ass. For years now, I have done nothing to you. I have said nothing of malice, I have just stayed quiet and civil with you. So many people wonder... Why am I civil with someone who completely bullied me. Someone who literally threw me under the bus, every single time. I smiled at them, and said it in one word. "Karma." Karma got you. Karma has gotten you, because now I don't need to get you. Why should I? I am a lot more mature than holding grudges, seeking revenge, and wishing awful things to happen to you.

For many years, I have tried to be your friend. Why? Who knows. All I know is I am a very kind woman. I will not let you walk over me, because you hold no more power over me.

You may have gotten away with getting all the staff at our school to like you. But one day, one day, everyone will see your true colors. If not, already.

You hold no more power over me. You know why? I have no more anger. I have no more resentment. I just choose not to acknowledge you. I choose not to be rude to you, I choose to be civil and kind. While you, still treat me like complete and utter dirt. I refuse to be a last minute friend. I refuse to let your hurtful words hold me hostage. As of now, I am free. I am so much stronger, I am so much happier and so much more relieved.

You have treated me like complete shit for many many many many years. I am now letting go of that anger, and hostility. Because it does no good to keep dwelling on the past. At times, it will trigger me, no lie. And I have had hard times trusting more people because of you bullies in my life.


But you know what? I have to say these two words. Fuck. You. 

You no longer affect me. Or my life. And for that I am grateful.

Thank you for reading :)

The reason I almost never write.

I. AM. SO. BAD. AT. KEEPING. A. BLOG. 

No, seriously. I am.

Most of the time, all that goes on in my head.. Are song lyrics.

Basically like... Green Day, Queen, Indian songs.. Whatever

I will TRY keeping my blog updated.

BUT NO PROMISES.. 

A picture of my number ONE favorite band.

Green Day is the shit, man...... I have been a very young girl when I listened to them, and now because I am a young adult.. I still listen to them. Mostly their old albums. 

They are amazing singers, and really good. 

I really do not know what to write about. Hahaha

525,600 minutes

APPRECIATE...

the little things in life.

Appreciate the days you are alive.
Appreciate your lover.
Appreciate your family.
Appreciate the fact you have a roof over your head.


JUST. APPRECIATE. WHAT YOU HAVE.

I have been going through an enormous emotional roller coaster the last few weeks again. Sometimes I'll get in this manic mood where I will post a ton of stuff, sometimes I have no idea what to write about.


OKAY.

Recently, I have spent time... Overanalyzing... Worrying... Crying....
over almost everything.

My boyfriend and I have almost hit a couple of rough patches. 
Keep in mind. Its a long distance relationship for now. And it is so hard. Almost unbearably hard. I will admit, there have been times, where we both wonder if we are better off without each other but honestly every time we talk, every time we Skype, I look at him and I wonder, "How could I be able.. to live without him? How could I stand to not tell him anything? To not talk to him at all"

After all. You know the saying.. LOVE conquers all. No matter what. If both you and your partner are willing to work it out. You WILL make it through.

It is unbelievably hard. 

UNBELIEVABLY HARD to be away from him. It is so hard not being able to kiss him at night, and turn over and cuddle him when I feel like crying.

It is so damn hard, when other people bitch and moan about not seeing their significant other for only three days. When I have not gotten the chance to see my love.

so....

People... you need to appreciate what you have. And trust God. God willing, things will work out for you.

ALSO. It is very hard for my boyfriend too to be away from me. But we are going to be united for the first time in a few weeks and I am beyond excited. I really look forward to seeing him, to going out on dates, to just being with him.

Its going to be amazing.

AGAIN. 
It is not easy to be in a long distance relationship, but it all is worth it in the end.