To my high school bullies.

Dear former bullies

I hope you know this. 

I forgive you. I forgive you for how you have treated me. To be honest, I have never said a word to you. Never told you how I really felt. But this is how I feel now.

You may have gotten away with the teachers. You may have gotten away with victimizing me. You may have gotten away with.. God knows what. But one thing you have left me with, are scars that have started healing. Scars that you have given me. Unfortunately, I am not able to inflict the same kind of pain on you, that you have inflicted on me. However, all I can say now is... Karma.

Karma has bitten you in the ass. For years now, I have done nothing to you. I have said nothing of malice, I have just stayed quiet and civil with you. So many people wonder... Why am I civil with someone who completely bullied me. Someone who literally threw me under the bus, every single time. I smiled at them, and said it in one word. "Karma." Karma got you. Karma has gotten you, because now I don't need to get you. Why should I? I am a lot more mature than holding grudges, seeking revenge, and wishing awful things to happen to you.

For many years, I have tried to be your friend. Why? Who knows. All I know is I am a very kind woman. I will not let you walk over me, because you hold no more power over me.

You may have gotten away with getting all the staff at our school to like you. But one day, one day, everyone will see your true colors. If not, already.

You hold no more power over me. You know why? I have no more anger. I have no more resentment. I just choose not to acknowledge you. I choose not to be rude to you, I choose to be civil and kind. While you, still treat me like complete and utter dirt. I refuse to be a last minute friend. I refuse to let your hurtful words hold me hostage. As of now, I am free. I am so much stronger, I am so much happier and so much more relieved.

You have treated me like complete shit for many many many many years. I am now letting go of that anger, and hostility. Because it does no good to keep dwelling on the past. At times, it will trigger me, no lie. And I have had hard times trusting more people because of you bullies in my life.


But you know what? I have to say these two words. Fuck. You. 

You no longer affect me. Or my life. And for that I am grateful.

Thank you for reading :)